Labels: challenge

 Day 3 : A memory

This one is too general. Sad memory? Hurtful memory ? Happy memory? Precious memory? Or telling my point of view on memory. I'm having hard time to choose T.T Let me think haha

I don't really remember how am i during my childhood, but i know i am a quite girl. But sometimes I can be loud too. When i watch and observe my sisters, i can feel their personality are way much different from me.

That's the unrelated into- hahaha

I still remember my parents bought samsung tab for my sisters. Back then, i didn't think my sisters need gadget, but my parents insists. Then, I realized that my parents bought the tab for my sisters maybe because my parents didn't want my sisters feel assdfgfhjjkl (hahahhaha i donno how to describe) because our cousins had it. 

Maybe because of the same reason, my parents also give the gadgets to me. But in a different way. I always did well in my exam, so they bought them for me. They asked me first what i want, but during that time, i don't desire anything. My life only friends at school, and home. No social media to influence me. So, when I get good results, they decided for me. 

The first gadget i got was a gameboy. As i remember it was pink colour and the shape was like below.However it was no longer in my possession because it went missing because of me. The second one was PSP. Although it was a present for me, i needed to share it with my other siblings, which eventually gone bad in my brothers' hands. I also felt it was unfair because, I got those gadget because I earned it through my good result and they don't need get good result to have it. That's why they 'naik lemak' hahaha 

Another memory with PSP also, i learned how to listen english songs. My elder cousin installed them in my PSP. At first, I shy-ii telling her that i didn't understand english song. Then she said, no need to understand, just enjoy the music (Thankyou Sara!) I applied the same concept when listening to the other foreign language song like korea and japan or anything.

Then the last one (during elementary school) I got an Acer pink notebook as present for my UPSR result. At first i was contemplated whether to get phone or laptop. My parents encouraged me to get the laptop. And I was okay. Btw, the phone i have during that time was nokia with yellow screen. I used the notebook for years until it was broken down. It latest damage was cracked screen. The notebook contributed a lot. But, it was also slow down a lot maybe because illegal manga/anime which has so many ads.

P/s : I still got my first smartphone, Samsung Galaxy Y when i was 13.

Labels: challenge

Assalamualaikum and hi.

Day 2 : Describe the things that makes me happy 

I am a simple person. Just the small things enough to make me over the moon.

Happy spending time with my family, my boyfriend, my close friends.

Happy just only if get to know other's good thought or intention for me.

Happy if someone notice and remember some or small details about me. Because i don't expect anyone to understand me. Better that way, so it does not hurt. Plus i understand myself the best.

Happy just only people showing good manners to me.

Happy to eat delicious food. But this kind of happiness might destroy my body visual lol. I don't care gaining weight but, i can be conscious about that when i put on my outfit. However there is solution; I will eat healthily, eat what I want moderately. That's how I/m gonna love my body. With exercise ofc.

Another thing, spending money make me happyyy hahahah as students, I only get money from my parents. How to ask for money without guilty? Be a good daughter and super helpful especially with house chores hehe If we are good to our parents, then they also have no problem to grant your wishes. Besides spending on food, i also love to spend on shopee. But ofc, another reminder; don't shop till u drop. Buy things that u really can't get off of it in your mind.

Last, but not least, the most important, my me-time. It give me peace and happiness at the end of the day.

Another note to become easily happy is to not comparing yourself with others, always be grateful, counting your blessings, forgiving with others and yourself. Self-love is the key. You can make yourself happy. You can make people you care and love happy. Don't let others control your happiness. 

Adios.

Labels: challenge

 Hi assalamualaikum.

It's been a really long long time since i update anything. The last entry was 2018, so it has been 2-4 years. The 2018 entry i think originally was made in 2016 but edited in 2018 lol 😂

And yesss today is 1 September 2020. To short long story to compensate for those years, there is hella many things to story about. So, this entry I just want to do 30 days writing challenge. This one is not the complicated one, just basically about myself hohoho  Sounds self-center and narcissistic but- whateva

Why?

I think because i want people to know about me. hahahahah but i'm so introvert irl And i know myself the best :) I just want to express my thoughts in words. Plus, i love writing and better in it than talking So, the rest is history.

Day 1 : Describe your personality

As stated many many times, i am an introvert girl. I am quite, shy, not like talking very much, awkward when there is many people. Can say, i am observing but i am not so alert person, i only care about things that has my interest. While i'm observing, i mainly process those information in my head and then only keep those for myself, means i rarely share those thoughts with others. I found myself, different than most of my friends who can share stories (which if it were me, i dont really tell others) in interesting way, use that as a topic of conversation. I am so envy with them. 

This my major personality also makes me understand if i don't have many close friends. As for chatting/whatsapp-ing with friends is also not my ace. This is an exception for my boyfriend, where i text him daily, but mostly just an ordinary daily conversation topic, and sometimes the meaningful one (ofc we have that bcos we're a couple right) and mostly he is the funny one. Yeah another one, i am not funny. I'm more serious silent one hahahah but i try to vibing with my companies. As for group chat, i am the silent reader also. It just maybee i'm afraid if no one respond to me. like, nobody need my random response. I prefer chatting personally, one-to-one. Once, someone asked timetable in the group, but i send it personally to him. everyone wishing happy birthday in group, but i send it personally. lol. sometimes it because of i/m a being silent reader for too long and i am worry if i am suddenly pop out hahahaha

I know that i am an introvert because doing stuffs that naturally happen for extrovert kinda consume my energy. Like hanging out with friends, talking, joining association (PMFBIM, silat) But it was also fun and i had self-satisfaction. Those things just not happen naturally to me, i need to do effort then i need me-time to recharge. I'm grateful for the experience and knowledge that I gained during the journey.

I try my best to keep myself and my things organize, without that my life will be so messy.

I think i am optimistic. You know, being positive and so on. I don't let something bother or let me down for too long. I am easily moving on because I jut want peace. I am forgiving haha but i don't really forget. I'm trying my best to be good and better. but somehow i think i always failed.

Most people said i am garang. Maybe true.

I may have a toxic trait that i don't realize, it can be vary depending on those people. I'm not perfect. I can be annoying, irritated, arrogant, bossy to some. another toxic trait; i late replying chats. because sometimes i don't feel like replying on time, so i procrastinated in which sometimes i totally forget about it.

Labels: challenge